It makes me so sad to see those animal abuse commercials on tv. How could someone hurt an animals? How could they not feed it? How could they not bring it inside on a cold night? How can they not love them? Is it really that hard? I find it pretty easy. All it takes is food and water every day, a warm place and someone to love and play with them.
On April, 21st 2013 my mom and I came home from a day of shopping. One of my cats named Sadie came in from outside. She was acting funny so I followed her to underneath my bed. Seeing she was tired and that something was obviously wrong I told my mum. The next day we knew something was seriously wrong. My dad and I took her to the vets. Hoping for positive thought. The vet said she had FIP which is Feline Infectious Peritonitis which is a fatal incurable disease. I cried. I hate crying but this was my Sadie girl. My best friend for 11 years. I never thought anything would happen to her. She was so tough and loved being outside. She'd follow my dad and I everywhere outside. I didn't want to see her go.
That night I slept down stairs on a mattress with her. Her stomach was bloated and she didn't eat. She would drink water but couldn't hold her bladder to get to the litter box. Her urine was an orangey color from the fluid in her. We had to keep her away from her sister because the disease was catchable. It was hard because Sophie knew something was wrong and wanted to come see her sister. That night I kept talking to Sadie and telling her how much I love her, and how much I'm going to miss her. I swear she knew what was going to happen. I cried myself to sleep around 3 in the morning. I went to school the next day trying to get my mind off of what we had to do that night.
On our way to the vet I was holding her and petting her face. That was the longest car ride of my life. Once we go there I was not ready at all. I'm very good at holding back my emotions but I knew I'd break. When we got in the room I melted. He drained some of the fluid out of her stomach and said I'll give you guys a few minutes. I never saw my dad cry before. This was hard for all of us. When she looked at me I said hi and she meowed and I knew she was going to be alright. The vet came back in and explained what the shot would do and how there is no pain. He gave her the shot in the heart and she slowly started to go. She was fighter though. He had to give her another because she wouldn't let go. I was with her every second. I was the last thing she saw and heard as she went to heaven. But nothing could fix the massive hole that was left in my heart.
Once we got home it still didn't feel real. I knew she was going to run out of somewhere and start meowing at me. (I still think that.) Jimmy came over as we buried my Sadie girl. We found a big heart rock and put it by her grave, with some little white stones. I knew she was going to be okay. She had one of my blankets in there with her and a little white toy mouse with her. As the night went on I couldn't get her out of my mind. I went down stairs to see how Sophie was doing and she started meowing which she hardly does. I held her and told her that she's gone but she's okay now. After a half hour with her my family, Jimmy and I ate supper. I hardly ate anything. Jimmy made me feel a little better. He talked about how he had to put one of his cats down a few years ago. I cried in Jimmy's arms, and he cried in mine.
As April 23rd comes closer and closer I get more emotional. It was a sad day and I'll remember it always. Sadie was one of my best friends, she was family. Talking about it today I still cry. I talk to her every night about my day and how much Sophie and I miss her. I know she can hear me even though I can't hear her. Life has been hard without her. You might say it's a cat, seriously...? But to me she was one of my best friends. She had been a part of my life for 11 years.
Sophie and I will always love you pretty kitty! Thanks for the many memories and fun times. Rest easy Sadie girl! <3
This is Sadie before she was sick, this is where we buried her, under a little apple tree, and the very bottom one is when Sophie and I when we went to see her :*
This is so sad:( but an amazing entry
ReplyDeleteSo sad, I almost cried :(
ReplyDeleteThanks Whit, and Aino... I did.
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